When I wrote Pieces of Grace, it took me months to finish that post. Beyond that, it took me nearly 15 years to find my way through a circuitous maze of understanding that my spiritual path would ultimately lead me to a place of beginning rather than a destination. A place of acceptance. Acceptance that it is something I must assemble. Over time. Even though I don’t yet have all the pieces of the puzzle laid out before me on the quintessential card table of life. That it’s not going to happen in an instant. And that it’s not a matter of leaving one house and walking in the doors of another.
Instead, as I wrote in that post:
“I have lightheartedly – over the last few years – referred to this questioning, this seeking and these feelings of being a spiritual misfit, as belonging to the church of human kindness. I have come to see the importance of making intentional choices to live kindly and to have that as a guiding principal. I find that I look in so many places for guidance, signposts and honestly, just honest to goodness resonance. A sense of place.”
Experiencing my friend’s Bat Mitzvah taught me to pay attention. The pieces? They show up when they will.
So, I read and listen. I pay attention. I remain open to finding pieces that fit. Everywhere I go, I am attuned. I know it when I hear, or sense, a sort of click within me. Outwardly, I kind of tilt my head to the side, like a quizzical puppy, and let my shoulders and chest rise and then fall, and I utter a, ‘hmh?!”.
In those moments, I know I have stumbled upon a piece, a piece that clicks in somehow. And so begins a new part of our time here together: Pieces.
During a recent read, an article titled: Peeling Back the Mask: Reconnect with your Authentic Self, on a site I follow religiously (pun totally intended there, c’mon! 🙂 ) I came across this and heard myself go, “hmh?!”…
” ‘We are our thoughts‘ isn’t just Eastern voodoo wisdom. The word ‘brainwashing’ has a negative connotation, so let’s call it brain painting. Painting your mind with things you love is a surefire way to become a happy you. This is nothing more than surrounding yourself with people, books, subjects and thoughts that make you smile. Be selective and consistent with what you allow in.“
I realized the resonance I found in this; this is part of the process, this is how it happens for me. The article caught my attention with its words “reconnect with your authentic self” – and then drew me so that I would find one of the pieces.
For me, the way I see it, I have to be looking, looking for the guideposts along the way. They are there.
What do you paint your brain with?